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I don’t have anything innovative to say.

You may find yourself in a similar position as me. A cool thing has ended and you are waiting around for the next cool bus to jump on. Maybe it’s a project. Maybe it’s a job. Maybe it’s a calling. Maybe it’s just a feeling that something is coming down the line. I may not have anything innovative to say But I do just want to remind you of three things if you are in a holding pattern.

  1. Do something. Twiddling your thumbs may be all the energy you can pull up after this last phase of your life ended but do something. Sometimes doing nothing is the best thing you can do but don’t let that dictate your everyday existence. Do what only you can do. Write, call, create, organize, research use some brain cells during this waiting time. Learn a little something new.
  2. Don’t go to pot. Literally or figuratively. Take care of yourself. If something has ended in your life then something is definitely about to happen. We are always in preparation for the next stage. Do you need to rest more? Sit on the patio and read a book? Hold a baby? Drink more water? Eat pizza with friends? Take a social media break? Actually exercise? Cut out the sugar? Meditate? Pray? I know for me, the last few weeks have been re-connecting with friends and family to build an anchor for my soul. It’s also been important to move into disciplined and consistent exercise.
  3. Don’t beat yourself up. We have created a vicious un-loving culture centered around DOING rather than BEING. Just as you never what to get Number 2 confused with Number 1 in bathroom life Don’t get number 3 on this list confused with number 1. We have fallen for this trap that if we are doing something then we must have value. It has to be something big. Something important. Something highly instagrammable. If a season of your life has ended that took up much of your identity it is easy to fall into a pit of despair when “That Thing” is over. I know for myself I have had those stupid self-pity sessions starting with “I don’t have anything to offer that anyone would want anyway.” Thus, one of many reasons I have picked up my blog again.

There really is a time for everything. Time for waiting. Time for healing. Time for grieving. Time for dreaming. Use this time that you have to gear up for the next BIG Important Deal in your life! Let me know what’s working or not working for you.


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Posted in Thinking out loud

Please don’t tell me to stand still

I didn’t wake up very rested this morning. Which usually means I was doing battle in my head all night. And because of a certain word tattoed on my mind’s eye this morning I think I was wrestling with God, *sigh again.


This is one of the worst things in the world you can say to me. To be told to “stand over here and wait, or stand on the sidelines, you’re on stand by”  just makes me want to jump out of my skin. I don’t want to just stand around doing nothing. I need to move. Life is short. I can’t just stand around waiting for things to happen.

Especially in this season of my life of trying to create something from nothing the bulldozer side of me is aching to get out. I’m holding back every natural order within me that if something needs built or created, you put your head down, and keep moving forward until it’s done.  Their are literally lives at stake here. I need to take a stand for innocent lives and social justice. I don’t need to stand around waiting for somebody else to do what I’ve seen. I need to fight, and battle to see this mission to completion. But that’s not what God is speaking to me.

15 He said: “Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s.16 Tomorrow march down against them. They will be climbing up by the Pass of Ziz, and you will find them at the end of the gorge in the Desert of Jeruel. 17You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.'”

Why I try to convince God that he doesn’t understand me is a mystery to both He and I. I’ve had this incorrect vision in my head of standing being a static position. Almost like loafing, or someone just holding up a wall. This scripture that God gave me is just the opposite. He is telling me to take my position. He’s giving me permission to get ready, to make the preparations, to build the relationships, to raise the money, to cast the vision, to gather the troops and the supplies for the so-called battle.

He’s telling me to stand to be ready to move on His direction. But He’s also reminding me this is His plan. I didn’t come up with this on my own. The idea of Sparrow wasn’t something I just dreamed up. He has been building this desire, this passion, this road for me and many others. He’s in charge and He will see this through to completion.

God isn’t telling me to stand still,

He’s telling me to stand at attention

And I am. I feel poised at the river’s edge ready to step in when He tells me it’s the right time. I’m standing in surrender and obedience to Him.

Are you standing at attention while God fights the battles in your life? How have you found standing helps you prepare?